[ghost]: 200.Poetry.Failure

I'm falling again
I've snapped off the strings I use
to hold me up and keep me going
and I'm broken again
like a film strip that has reached the end
and yet the movie keeps on rolling
I've tried to be so much
I've stretched myself so far
and I see what I want, I
just can't reach it
And I've always been like this
it's the only life I know
and I can never get my grip
so I can't ever
let it go!


Failure
it is the poison in my veins, cause I'm a
Failure
and all my struggles are in vain
Failure
and try hard as I may, I'm still a
Failure
and I can never change!

And I'm stumbling again
I lost my balance and my foothold as I
ran the razors edge
and I'm turning again
away from what I want to be
so I'll accept the way I am
I've tried to be so much
I've stretched myself so far
and I see what I want, I
just can't reach it
And I've always been like this
it's the only life I know
and I can never get my grip
so I can't ever
let it go!


Failure
it is the poison in my veins, cause I'm a
Failure
and all my struggles are in vain
Failure
and try hard as I may, I'm still a
Failure
and I can never change!


and people say that I try to do too much
and yet it feels like I can never do enough
and people say that I'm working much too hard
and that someday I'm gonna push myself too far

to them I say, yes, but how else can I grow?
how can I learn if I don't know what I don't know?
and how can I be proud of who I become
if when faced with trials, I succumb?

and so I hereby reject my fears
my weakness has no place of welcome here
and in its stead, I must be strong
cause independence means you stand alone


Failure
it is the poison in my veins, cause I'm a
Failure
and all my struggles are in vain
Failure
and try hard as I may, I'm still a
Failure
and I can never change!