[Blood and Chocolate on my Fangs]: 253.Poetry from a Twisted Soul

Hell Is a Decision

A tear stained face
A blackened space
I stand here now
Broken like my vow
Worthy I am not
I could stay strong I thought
But now I know the truth
The innocent ignorance of youth
Why can’t we have wisdom of years
Without facing our worst fears
Now I fall to my knee
Begging them to forgive me
How do I choose
When I know I must lose
Time is running out
Not I just gotta think about
What I should say
Why should they stay
I’m worthless now
Just like my vow
Broken and lost
But who pays the cost
Where do I turn
How will I learn
I moved to fast
Relived the past
Now I’m through
Just remember that I love you
I don’t know where to go
But I just want you to know
That I will always think of you and smile
Hoping you great happiness all the while
I’m always here when you need
We will meet again where our journeys lead


For the Moment

No sense of responsibility
No sense of commitment
She runs for the moment
Lives in a dream
Cries to the moon in a joyful keen
Runs through the night
Unheard
Unseen
Untamed by any man
Soul that's free
Power in every step
Spirit of fire
Alone in the chill
Embrace her not
She is of the wild
Fangs of    since a child
Chocolate oh so silky sweet
A desire she cannot beat
A glint in her eye
A look to defy
A powerless smirk
The result of his stare
This that he does to her...
It isn't fair
Rendering her powerless in desire
Licking her lips lustfully
She yearns for his taste
Craves his touch
So very much
She regains her sense
Turning, she runs
Runs from his beauty
The scent of him follows
Driving her insane
She runs in the joy
For the next moment
She is herself
Then the beast rises up
She shoots like lightning
Flying back to his arms
Dying to be close to him again



Sunset

Golden sky
Dark shadows fly
Crickets sound
All around

Clouds of purple,
Pink, and blue
Stars appear
Bright and new

Frogs cry out
Hop and shout
Search the pond
For that special bond

Darkness covers
Creeping slow
Fire flies soar
Their bottoms aglow

Sun rays die
Night beasts cry
Greeting the moon
Rising soon


Snow

Ghostly white
Frosting on this cake
Icy crystals
So frail
So beautiful
A blanket across the land
Sweet chills
Blinding light reflected on white
Coated with mirror like ice
Hiding under the trees
I watch as it falls
Dancing on the wind
Twinkling like stars
Night falls
Snow falls faster
Sheets obscure my view
Just a wall of snow
Swirling around me
Wrapping arms of ice
Sweeping me away
I turn to the woods
Walk deeper
Moonlight seeps through
Bars of light slip down
Through bare branches
Snow still falls
Slower now
I walk deeper
Bathed in patches of light
Cool flakes stick to my skin
Sprinkle my hair
I stop and look
It comes in slow motion
Soaring through the dark
I duck
The snowball thuds behind
My guard is up
I ball snow in my hands
I search the surrounding trees
Looking for the culprit
White flashes by my ear
A sneak attack
I whirl around
Snow falls faster again
My beloved stands
A ray of light
A shining grin
This means war
I release my frozen fury
He'll get it this time


Loss and Lost

Flame burns in dark
In light
Death's cold hands
They grip
Tear
Kill the flame
Blind the light
Install fear
Death leaves
Only destruction remains
Blood
Pain
Tears
I'm left alone
The fangs of death
They crushed his life
Tore him from me
Took his warmth
Killed to cold
My familiar gone
I will lose my way
There is only one other
Who can save me
Hurry my love
Without you I will be lost
I will die


Without You

One season melts into another
Minutes stretch...into hours,
Hours into days...days into years
The same thing everyday
My life was pointless
I had no direction
I walked in a crowd
Completely alone


Sweet Release

Tears are hot
They burn my cheeks
My fingers ice
Chilled to bone
Heart turns cold
Hard like stone
Pain sears
Complete my fears
Blinded now
Wrists bleed free
Blade so sweet
Cut so deep
Darkness dawns
Close my eyes
Pain so sweet
Heart beat slows
No longer tense
Limbs relax
Bittersweet release
The end is near
Goodbye my dear


Caged

Caged
Locked tight
Unable to run
Unable to fight
Lost the will to live
Stuck in place
Forever alone
Lost in space


Love's Magic

Stars that twinkle in the sky
Birds that twitter, jump, then fly
Fawns that frolic, prance, and play
Willows singing as they sway
The wind carries such a scent
The night is warm, the day is spent
Every evening now I pray
That I will always feel this way
With your love I can feel
All my dreams now seem so real
Fairies dance beneath the moon
The garden gnomes will be out soon
Twilight softly shadows your face
The sound of the night makes my heart race
I kiss you softly and pixies soar
A magical fire sears through my core
A breath so deep
A sigh within
Let the magic now begin
Fire like rains now lace the sky
Through the woods an awestruck cry
This magical eve now sounds of thunder
As fire flowers shoot from under
Cheers and clapping can now be heard
You and I embrace without a word


Stallions Under the Sun

With speed they run
Their coats glistening
Creatures not tamed by man
Ruled not by greed or religion
Ruled only by the law of the land
Free to go where ever they please
Strong beast with a sense of family
Racing against the wind
Moving fast enough to fly
The ground quakes with each
Thunderous beat of their hooves
Silently they live, swiftly they move
These stallions of old

Everything

If there was anything in the world
Anything at all that I could give you
I would give you everything
I would give you everything
Because without you I would be nothing
I would be nothing but a sad
Forgotten little  
Looking for something she lost
But would never ever find
If I could give you anything in the world
Anything at all
I would give you everything
I would give you everything
Because without you I would have no love
Know no kindness like yours
I would forever be alone
I would always be cold
Now I ask you,
Is my heart enough...


Decisions

Down this road I've been before
The other road I fear
I chose this road because it was safe
The other road is bumpy
I feared opening up so I walked alone
I could walk with you down the other road
I look at you and debate
Do I give you my heart?
Do I follow you on this road?
The road is dark this way
No light to show what’s ahead
To go this way
Would mean putting my life...
My destiny in your hands
Doing this could mean my destruction
Doing this could mean ecstasy...
Eternal happiness...
Something so beautiful
I will take the dive
In your arms I will stay
Take care of me love.


Walk Through A Snowy Night

Snow all around
Glittering ground
Moon in the sky
Wish I could fly
I look up above
To the moon full of love
Purest of light
Deepest of sight
Clouds pass without a sound
This scene casts a spell to which I am bound
An adrenaline rush
With each step I crush
I crush the snow beneath my feet
My steps in time with this winter's beat
Breath comes out in sparkling clouds
Trees sag under their icy shrouds
Everything cloaked in a crystal shine
Such a beautiful sight, so very divine
The icy cold does not bother
I continue trudging farther
Farther away from that home
Across this beautiful world I roam
By my side you walk
We both understand, there is no need to talk
 

Winter's Love

I step out under an icy sky
Thick snow...soft and wet...
Covers all that can be seen
Stray flakes fall
From clouds of pearl
They stick to my hair and chill my bare arms
My velvet dress slides across the icy path
I walk down this path of glittering diamonds
Entranced by the beauty of it all
Everything is silent...everything still...
I look to the moon
Half hidden by branches of glass
Smells of pine and snow mix
Intoxicating my senses
I find my mind wandering
To thoughts of him...
Beautiful thoughts...of a beautiful mind
Thoughts of a love...
A love I have never known
The ice that runs through me melts away
I long for his touch...to be in his arms...
But the love he has shown is enough...
Enough to warm even this...
My harshest winter

Within the Soul

Looking into one's spirit
You may find a forgotten tragedy
You could find love, compassion, and hope
You could be looking across the universe
Seeing the victories of the soul
The endurances of the inexhaustible honor
The agony and grief of faded anguishes
You may witness as compassion prevails
As it prevails over fear
Looking into one's soul
You see a story
A story that goes on forever

By: Tiffany Chronister and Sara E. Conner

For Her I Will Always Fight

Her hair...black as night
Cascading down her smooth, curved body
A body full of temptation
For her I would fight

Brown eyes, full of light
Entrancing is her gaze
They hold me fast...such beautiful eyes
For her I would fight

In her arms I lose sight
With every kiss and caress
I fall deeper in love
For her I would fight

I love for her to bite
She tests my skin with her teeth
Sends shivers up my spine
For her I would fight

I hold her tight
Caressing her every curve
Whispering "I love you" in her ear
For her I would fight

I lover her with all my might
Her gentle curves
I charrish her love till death
For her I will always fight


She Sets Me Ablaze

Eyes of fire...
Blazing into my soul
Skin of honey
Icy cold to the touch
How I long to embrace her
To love her...
To love her the way she deserves
To warm her with my own love...
With my body
To feel her by my side
I would give the world
To have our lips meet...
In just one...breath taking kiss
Finally she knows me...
And I know her
We are no longer alone
Together forever
An eternal fire.

Once I...

Once I cried
Alone and abused
Once I cut myself
Such pain I could not refuse
Once I loved
And thought I was loved back
Once I fell
After one hellava smack
Once I gave you my heart
And you broke it
Once I wished I could run
When all I could do was sit
Once I trusted you
Would have given you the world
Now you've killed me
So I shall give you nothing
No more shall I give you my heart
No more shall I give you my love
No more shall I give you the chance
You deserve nothing
Not from me...not ever again


In The Dark Wasteland

Alone in this world
I started to die
No one was there
So empty inside.

I continued to walk
Down this road to hell
With every rock and root
I tripped and I fell

When would it stop
This pain in my heart
This dark wasteland
That consumed me from the start

I see up ahead
In the distant trees
A light of gold
And I feel a gentle breeze

I head toward the light
As fast as I can
The rocks and roots increase
As I cross this great span

Thorns start to reach
To tear at my skin
I look ahead and see you
I look at your face and see a grin

I can feel your faith
I can hear your love
It starts to sing in my veins
Gives me the wings of a dove

Suddenly I rise
With one beat of my wings
I soar out of the thorns
The adrenaline in my blood begins to sing

As I come nearer
You reach out your hand
I land beside you
To weak to stand

You grasp me before my fall
Hold me to your chest and kiss me
With that you steal all my pain
At your smile, I was set free.

 
At A Loss

I'm at a loss for things to say.
I suppose I'm funny that way.
There may be nothing left to say.
But I'll continue day to day.
I'll continue to dance without reason.
Believe my beliefs that can be called treason.
I'll still smile for no apparent reason.
Laugh no matter what the season.
I'm at a loss for things to say.
I suppose I'm funny that way.
There may be nothing left to say.
But I'll continue day to day.


A Stream

The leaf on the stream
Drifts like a dream
Spinning and twirling
In the stream's constant curling
I sit and zone out
Just can't think about
All this pain inside
Becomes too much to hide
I cry into the night
You wake up with a fright
Pulling me into your arms
Soothing my tears with your charms
You stroke my hair
Let me cry in despair
You kiss me deeply
We are both so sleepy
Gently we fall
To sleeps beck and call
And now in my dreams
I return to the stream


For James

You held me closer
Closer than anyone else
Now I am without
Your warm embracing touch
But sad I am not
Disappointed at your mentality
But not sad
Past loves keep me going
One man alone holds me
Holds the true key to my heart

 
The Fall

I've done it again
I've fallen for the second time
The first time
No one caught me
I hope this time
He will
I was broken once
Shattered like glass
So I formed a shield
A wall between my heart
And the world
Never, I swore, will I fall
For another man
I will live alone
At peace with the world
If not with myself
But now
I come to the same problem
Instead of letting the cliff
Crumble beneath me
I will jump
No more standing there
Waiting in insecurity
I will fall
And hope his heart
Is true
I hope he is a good catch
Because here goes


I See Them Hiding

I watch the people around me
I watch them closely you see
Some run around without a care
So many they pull out their hair
I make the people around me laugh
Though inside they may be screaming
I see them hiding one and all
I realize before them when they're gonna fall
I'm there when they need a helping hand
I'm there, a leg on which they may stand
I stand in the shadows, wondering and waiting
I watch them hide and I see myself as well
I hide from them, I won't let them see
I can't allow them to know the true me
So alone I will always stay
By myself at the end of the day


His Touch

A gentle caress
And I must confess
In a bear hug
I feel so snug
Hold me tight
I will not fight
Hold me near
Kiss away my fear
To you I belong
I know this can't be wrong
The happiness I feel
Only your touch can deal


The Only Man

This man knows me
This man does not own me
That maybe so, but still I stand by him
Because of the words he said
'I love you' he said
'Nothing could ever change that' he said
And I, I believed every word
He didn't say the words in mock truth
He said them like he believed them true
Love like this I thought I would never know
So I pushed him away
To save myself from pain
I was, however, sadly mistaken
I believed him every time...
Every time he said those words
And yet I could never bring myself...
Bring myself to say the same
It was true though
I felt exactly the same & still do
Only once I said those words to him
I feel the same, if not more so
But I will not allow myself to accept him
I will not allow myself true happiness
I feel that that is not something I have earned
No word from this man
This man who loved me
And I him
No word in a very long time
Now he is gone & only cold, icy silence remains
I wish I could have told him the truth
Wish I could turn back time
No, instead I blew every chance I got
He will always be the best friend I ever had
I will always love him
No one will ever understand me like he did
I will always think of him and smile
He will always be the man
The only man I ever truly loved


Dance

Standing in the corner
Awaiting the throbbing beat
Multicolored lights flashing
Smoke swirls at my feet
Adrenaline courses through me
Excitement building fast
Not many people here yet
Dozens of bodies will sway
AS the music’s spell is cast
The throbbing starts
The fog rolls in
I dance and thing of “Footloose”
Is dancing a sin?
No matter
I sway in time
Keeping pace
Keeping beat with the rhyme
Bodies crush together
Craving the heat of others
I laugh as some dance
Dance in ways that would shame mothers
Lovers so close
Friends in a swirl
Honky-tonk comes on
A snake starts to curl
Minutes pass to hours
Songs new and old are spent
My legs begin to tire
Craving bed, a heaven’s sent
Finally the stroke of midnight
The music stops
The lights go out
One of few parties that end without cops


Patient Disaster

I wait patiently
Sit on a wall
A figure comes into view
So different from that which I search for
Hair so short
Walk so weary
The figure nears
No mistaking him now
I recognize those eyes
That shadow of a half smile
I break apart
Turn to mush
I swore I would remain in control
But already I slip
He speaks
His tone is sad
He is worn by the year
It has been only a year
Yet he looks so much older than his years
His eyes are so tired
His body grown weak
We talk a while
He has changed so much
We part ways
For the final time I say goodbye


Cough

A chill in the air
A catch in your throat
A shiver
Fight the urge
Don’t go into a fit
The cough tears at your nerves
It tickles
Distracts
Drives you insane
Nose starts to run
No tissue in sight
Sniff
Clear your throat
The itch gets worse
The room is so crowded
So quiet
Must get out
Must cough
Can’t breath
Someone talks to you
Reply is a croak
Sniff again
Stand
All eyes on you
Clear your throat with a hack
In a crackly voice ask…
“May I please use the restroom?”
Step in the hall
You can fight it no longer
In a wave it breaks free
Finally…you can breathe


Relax

Relax
Just breathe
Things are fine
Life’s divine
Calm yourself
Don’t worry
God woman!
Stop shaking
You’re not in trouble
You’ve done nothing wrong
So come on
Sing a happy song
Fingers twitching
Limbs quaking
Get a hold of your emotions
Do not fall
Stand tall, stand proud
You have nothing to be ashamed of
You need friends
They owe you a life
So why can’t you stand and fight
Cool it
Chill
Don’t forget to take your pill
Don’t fret
It’s not over yet
Don’t run
Turning your back doesn’t help
You’re not going to be life’s pun


To You-To Me

You smile-I smile
We lay awhile
You stretch-I stretch
We watch kids play catch
You stand-I stand
We get hit with a rubber band
You chase-I chase
We hit little brother with a rubber mace
You jump-I jump
We both have a purple lump
You like in the mirror-I see you
We stick together like glue
You see the shadows-I see the lines
We both see the signs
You grow old-I grow old
We laugh as we begin to mold
You say goodbye-I say goodbye
Together we finally die


Sorry

I am sorry
I promised you
Mislead you
My intensions were pure
My heart aches
Aches for this lie
But what can I say
What can I do
I sit here now
I think
I remember the past
A relationship that wouldn’t last
A tear in my eye
Memories I erased
Now flood back
I am sorry I broke you
In the end it was fate


Wish On The Wind

I sit here now watching the clouds
It is warm for February
Such a wonderful sight
Sunrays peeking through holes in the clouds
The wind whirls around me
Cool but not cold
The clouds are thick
And yet the world holds light
I sit and dream of you
I wish for you so much
I whisper your name on a passing breeze
Thinking of you here now, beside me
Suddenly the wind picks up
Whipping my hair around my face
I am forced to close my eyes
There is an odd smell in the air
Metallic…electric
I can taste it
Tangy…sweet…a taste of fire
I feel the wind spiral violently
Encircling me tight
I feel dizzy…something is different
The ground feels wrong
My stomach tumbles
The wind dies down
Though I am sitting
I feel as though I may fall
I grip the concrete to instead find grass
I hear a grunt beside me
Open my eyes
My stomach tumbles again…
I fall sideways
You are sitting there…confused and shocked
What could have done this…
Brought us together…
I look around and notice a lake
It is all too much
My mind goes blank…it gets dark…
I stretch…it was only a dream
Such a wonderful dream
I open my eyes and nearly black out again
There you are…
I’m in your arms…
Your warm embrace
You’re smiling at me
You whisper softly
“I called on the wind…
You called to me…
Now we are together”
I smile back at you
Unable to move from this trance
I lay there in your arms
You lean down…your lips a mere breath from mine
“I love you,” you whisper
Our lips connect creating a new electric charge
You hold me so close
We are together…so close
The heat between us gives off such passion
All because of a wish on the wind


Trapped

The door is closed
The room is dark
A ghostly wind whips
The shutters crash
I turn in a circle
Searching the room
Searching the shadows
Kneeling low
I peer at the corner
Stumble backward
Fall to the floor
A yelp of fright
Claws on wood
A scream
Struggling to my feet
Scratching sounds
Creeping closer
Scabby hands twist
Encircle my ankle
With a shriek I fall
I try to struggle free
His grip too tight
Eyes blood red
Hypnotizing
With a final scream
I wake
Covers trap my feet
Breathing fast
I lay back
My body relaxes
It's over


Stairway

I see a stairway leading
Leading high
Leading low
Spiraling out of sight
Head spinning
A decision to make
Take the stairs
Up or down
Or follow the path
The path I’m on
Straight
Into uncertainty
Up to the heavens
Down to the flames
Straight into the arms
Into the arms of the unknown
Sit awhile
Indecision
Standing to stretch
Take a step
Forward
Onward
Adventure seems the best
Straight on
Follow the unpaved road


Lazy Days

A journey lies ahead
But I don’t want out of bed
Perhaps I can just lie awhile
That seems the popular style
Sit and wait
I won’t debate
Just lay here
Nothing to fear
Relax under a morning sun
Watch as rabbits have their fun
Lay in the grass
But alas…
This pleasure cannot last
I think for a time
Eating a lime
Puckering up
Then drink from a cup
Slowly I stand
He takes my hand
No way to run
I’m part of life’s pun
Time to go
It’s painful I know
But it has to be done
Though all I want is to have fun


Outer Space

Glinting
Glistening
Showering lights
Stars glowing above
Silver clouds surrounding
So beautiful
Cosmos spinning
The moon shines bright
Casting us in pearly light
We walk beneath the stars
I think of you
You think of me
We stare at the skies above
A flash of light
A shooting star
I make a wish to stay
To stay with you
Together forever
Beneath a beautiful
Forgiving heaven


Master’s Servant

I see a face at the window
Green eyes
That piercing gaze
So stern and bossy
Bushy tail flicks
How dare I
I am nothing to that stare
Just a servant
I should obey
But look at my chair
Claw marks add to the design
Still what I do is ghastly
There is dirt outside
To let those dainty paws get filthy
Shame on me
But my poor chair
Those claws are lethal
Destructive
And yet that gaze
That hunter’s prowl
I’ll get it this time
Oh boy I’ll pay
My master calls
Open the door
He streaks across the floor
Noooo…not my chair


Slipping Away

Something is slipping away
But what I cannot say
It’s almost like I’m losing my mind
Something I may never find
I stare into the gray
I’ll be okay, come what may
I’ll stand tall
Arise to the call
But still, I wish it would stay
Still it leaves, day after day
It creeps farther still
I think I forgot to take my pill
This is not good
I didn’t take it though I should
Nice men in white coats won’t be happy
Grab the huggy jacket, feed me colored candy
Hurry hurry, run away
It’s not safe to stay
I’m losing something, have to find
They are catching up, not far behind
Tackle me down
Hold me still with a frown
Pry my mouth wide
Chuckle with pride
Drop my pills in
Haha, they win
Now it comes back
That something I lack
Now I am fine
Turns out it was my mind
 

Questions

What is happening to me
This makes no sense
My mind is spinning
My heart is pounding
Thoughts are muddled
How can he do this
Render me powerless
Just a touch
Just a glance
How could I fall so fast
I’m stronger than this
Stand up
Take charge
Put up a fight
But…but it feels so good
I want this
Want him to hold me
Want him to love me
But why
What is happening to me
I’m so much happier
More cheerful than before
This can’t be right
But I’ll give in
I want to be wrong
Temptation take me under
Desire hold me close
I think
It could be
Maybe, just possibly
Could this be love

 
Raizinded

You know what,
It’s been nice,
It’s been fun,
But you know I’m not the one.
Not the one you dream about,
Not the one you can’t live without.
So now with a smirk I bow out.
And if you expect me to cry,
Then just know this as I say good bye,
At first you were an ass,
This is true...
But then I grew quite fond of you...
but don’t mistake...
I knew you were fake.
God what drives you...
Are you that low...
Or do you just want more girls to call your "hoe"?

I wont deny...
I think I’ll cry...
But only because I can’t stop laughing.
I’m sorry hun,
You should have known.
When you play with a player...
Your gonna get blown.
Marry you?

I said I do...
When all the time...
I tried to hide...
The merry laughter...
Growing inside.
Silly you...
Made a slip...
Now grow up boy...
Get a grip.
Little kids like you don’t satisfy me...
Not even when you are down on knee.
You just keep on playing house...
But just watch out where you stick your mouse.
Light sockets are fun..
You should try those...
But your probably best to just keep on Your clothes.
I will tell you this...
About the only thing I will miss...
You turned into inspiration...
Maybe even my motivation...
Alright I’m out...
Now stand and shout...
"Finally she’s gone"...
Now fuck you.
Peace out.

 
Help

Help me! I am falling
Can’t get up
Far too weak
Too weak to speak
To weak to move
I need your help
Need your strength
A leg to stand on
A shoulder on which to cry
I need your love
As you need mine
Together we find a reason
Living strong
Apart we fall to pieces
Crumbling in the wind
Help me! I am falling
Can’t get up
I’m lost without you
Need your love
Without you I am nothing
Help me stand strong
I shall stay by your side
My word as my bond


Surprise

I enter a room
Blinded by light
Shouts ring out
Ecstatic delight

Happy Birthday
They remembered
Where did I get friends like these
Planning this since November

Music plays
Figures dance
Sitting before a cake
Flames in a trance

Blow them out
Make a wish
Open the presents
After my first dish

Party games
Truth or Dare
Karaoke
Blush as everyone stares


Another Life

Something seems familiar
Faces so strange
Places so alien
Yet I’ve known this before
Another life
A forgotten past
Sit on a stump
Look around
This world in which I stand
So very familiar
So odd
I feel complete
Though I don’t know why
My mind buzzes
My heart thumps
It’s there
At the back of my thoughts
A shadow of memory
A glisten of…
Could it be hope
Maybe this is my salvation
I was happy once
Can I be so again
Something seems familiar
I wish I knew what


Here Before

I have been here before
Walked this very same floor
Beheld this exact scene
What does this mean?
Am I destined to be here?
Even after more than a year?
I see your smile
It has been a while
Things look the same
Like a picture in a frame
But the flow of the air
Tells me something else is there
You give me a hug
Your warmth is so snug
I hold you tight
This feels so right
I’ve missed you so
Why did you have to go
It’s fine, I’m happy to have you
I know you’ve missed me too
This time we’ll get it right
We’ll make it without a fight
I love you very much
Never hated you, not even a touch
Thank you for coming home
Together the world we can roam
Remember

I wish I could remember
The smell of the ocean
The feel of the sand
The sounds of the gull

I wish I could remember
The size of a mountain
The howl of the wolf
The eyes of the woods

I wish I could remember
The tunnels of snow
The moon’s pearly shine
The track’s I could find

I wish I could remember
The taste of the wild berries
The height of the sunflowers
The buzz of the bees

I wish I could remember
The innocence of youth
The carefree life
The love of tiny friends

I wish I could remember
The smell of a puppy
The call of a kitten
The warmth of an egg

I wish I could remember


The Beginning

Today is just the beginning…
A new day
All your own
Today is the start
A fast coming future
A new chapter in life
Today is fresh
Erase past woes
Strive to succeed
Today is for you
Take life
Make it what you want
Today is the next adventure
Live for it
Fight for it
Today is a breath on the wind
Hear it sing
See it soar to new heights
Today is of love
New life’s creation
The fall of a nation
Today is unplanned
Unshaped
Mold it into beauty
Today is just the beginning
The start of the rest of your life
The end of the past


My One Christmas Wish

I look out the window
At the crystalline night
I feel the chill it holds
A new burst of cold with
Each icy flake
I turn my attention to a warmer scene
Beautiful lights on a glittering tree
Above the fireplace hang stockings
Only two to be seen
In the grate a fire burns
Giving off a loving warmth
But nothing could compare
To the feeling I get
When I am huddled so close
To your body and soul
A Christmas in your arms
Is all I could wish
And of course the occasional mistletoe kiss


What I Lost

Icy rain falls
Coating the snow
I can almost hear the crack
As the ice starts to grow

Ice encases my heart
In layers like stone
No warmth to be found
Chilled to the bone

My last breath dies
In a cloud of frost
The snow curls around
Reminding me of what I lost

His love was mine
It kept me safe…warm
Then with the wind I lost him
Gone with the raging, black storm

Despair overtook me
I cried for so long
The silence ripped through me
Deadly was the song

So die I have
Without his love I knew I would
Alone in this cold
Finding peace as only I could


Die and Wait

Alone in the cold
No snow to be seen
Just a barren wasteland
Draped gray is the scene

Tears frozen still
Never to fall
Broken and torn
No love at all

Stabbing like knives
The wind whips my skin
I wish to run, to hide
But I cannot begin

I wander through the wasteland
Lost and crying
I find no way out
The only escape is by dying

So I lay where I stand
Crying for my love
Slowly the pain subsides
And I find my peace with a dove

My last breath fades
I rise above the clouds
The light warms my skin
I shed the icy shrouds

I look back down on the world
A tear falls from my eye
I will wait for my love
I’m in no hurry to fly


Blood Soaked

Sleet and snow
Cold I know
Out of the dark
Into the night
Thanks to them
I’ve lost my sight
Pacing the floor
Walk out the door
Shadows streak by
In misery cry
Wolves reveal fangs
They lunge and snap
Blood coats the ground
Somewhere a gurgling sound
Ringing in ears
Screams in blood tears
The madness the bring
A hell all my own
I find him standing
Cut throat and alone
Tears fill my eyes
Now whither and die


Sweet Release

Tears are hot
They burn my cheeks
My fingers ice
Chilled to bone
Heart turns cold
Hard like stone
Pain sears
Complete my fears
Blinded now
Wrists bleed free
Blade so sweet
Cut so deep
Darkness dawns
Close my eyes
Pain so sweet
Heart beat slows
No longer tense
Limbs relax
Bitter sweet release
The end is near
Goodbye my dear

 
I Turn To The Clock

A pain in my chest
A ripple in my gut
I shake with nerves
My head starts to pound
My heart to race
I turn to the clock
Willing time to stop
Seconds tick by
Tormenting my soul
I fight the urge to cry in despair
My blood sings with fear
I turn to the clock
When will it end
When will this feeling die
Almost time
Only hours to go
Hours till my work is destroyed
I turn to the clock
The bottom drops out of my stomach
Only seconds remain
I’ll be home soon
A bell rings
The last ding-dong of doom
Not long now till they eat me alive
I turn to the clock and die


Goodbye My Love
 
A breath once warm
Now chills my skin
A touch once caring
Now strikes with pain
A voice once beautiful
Now brings tears to my eyes

My how you’ve changed
You once spoke so true
Now sound deranged
I got lost in your lies
Lost in promises for the future
Now I caress the clouded skies

How far gone you are
The man I once loved
And I am still stuck in tar
Miles behind I stay
Clinging to the past
I’m pathetic that way

A breath once warm
Now chills my skin
A touch once caring
Now strikes with pain
A voice once beautiful
Now brings tears to my eyes

Goodbye my Love


Hands

Hold me close
So warm
So soft
So gentle
Protect me always
So comforting
So strong
So swift
Against my skin
They burn…
Melting me
Making my legs so weak
Pressing me tight
So tight against your chest
Allowing your body to melt mine
Melt me entirely
Your hands caress me gently
Keeping me steady
Keeping me safe

 
Child of the Night

Daughter to the sweet moon
Child of the night
Body strong and sleek
Skin to fur…
Such a beautiful change
A moment of pain
Brings a night of passion and fire
Down by the stream
Paws pounding the earth
The sweet luxury and freedom
She howls to the night
She calls to her love
She searches in the dark
Running tirelessly
Turns in random directions
Nothing will stop her
This hunger…desire
It calls to her
Willing her to move faster…farther
Dawn approaches
She slows
Still her love evades her
This child of night is not detoured
At night she will hunt for him
By day she will search for him
She will find this…her one true love


Fever

Standing in front of me
So powerful
So tempting
Your sweet scent
Carried to me by the heat
The heat of your body
Oh how I long to touch you
To pull you close
Oh how I crave to taste you
To let the heat of my tongue embrace yours
I want to explore
To explore your body with my fingertips
To caress your neck
Caress it so softly with my lips
To feel your chest pressed tight to mine
But these…
These are the wanting
From a love sick fever
I yearn for your arms around me
Your own hands exploring
Your breath mingling with mine
The fever in me burns
Our bodies tangle
We become one
Sweet tangy sweat
You taste so good
The hotter it gets
The more I crave
The more I beg to have
Our bodies so close
So much heat
But these…
These are the ranting
From a love sick fever


The Call

Gray colors the world
It is cool for afternoon
Mist clings to everything
My hair drips with moisture
From the air…
From my sweat…
Still I push on
My breath coming in gasps
A bird flies beside me
Calling a question to which there is no answer
“Why do you run?”
All I can do is go faster…
Harder in reply
I feel their eyes
So full of questions
Following me
My legs grow weak
But still I run
It is an urge like no other
An urge to run
To some unknown destination
A call…
A call of the wild within
A craving so strong
Nothing I do can stop it
I am so hot
Every fiber of me burns
I am so very weak
Yet I continue on
Running hard
I know…If I just keep going…
Just a little farther…
I will reach what I seek
I stumble…only for a moment
No rock or root can stop this…
This, my answer to the call
Finally I stop
So tired I can’t see
Panting for breath
My knees give way
But I do not fall
Something holds me up
I know that smell
So strong now
It is the scent that called to me
My eyes are closed
I am being held tight
Kept standing
I look up, eyes now open
A smile meets my gaze
I can rest now
I am safe
My running was not in vein
Was not the workings of insanity
He picks me up
He is so perfect against me
I fall into a deep…
Protected slumber in his arms


A Single Tear

With a single tear
I’ll show you
With a single tear
You’ll see
All the times
You’ve made me cry
All the times
You’ve killed me


Fading

Fading past
The walls I know
Fading out
My final show
Dreams progress
Real world turns
To shadow it falls
To ash it burns
Darkness sucks
Life’s light dies
Demons soar
Sounding evil cries
Souls quiver in fear
Chilled to the bone
Lost is the sun
The world turned to stone
Fading past
The walls I know
Fading out
My final show

 
In Your Arms

I look into your eyes
So full of passion
So full of love
Your arms wrap slowly
Sliding around my waist
You pull me close
I embrace you lovingly
You kiss me softly
Tangled up in our embrace
I feel whole, I am happy
In your arms is all I need
For your touch I have such greed
In your arms forever more
In your arms at heaven’s door


Passion

An extreme heat
A heat from which there is no relief
The sight of him
Makes me this way
Makes me twitchy and squirming
A dreamy sensation
A love of him
A love of this
This sweetness that gives life
This blood and chocolate
Even after he is gone
This awareness remains
Like ice water it hurts
When he is sad or angry
I feel my claws unsheathing
I rise with this adrenaline’s
Thunderous power
Demanding him to respond
Demanding him to return my kiss
Wanting him to run in this night’s beauty by my side