[w c 2525]: 454.Upset

Upset
Current mood: aggravated

When I get upset its a horrible thing. My emotions flair out of control and my heart always feels like its going to burst. I don't understand that. Everyone around me becomes a pain in the ass and I don't feel like being sociable. Most of my friends try to cheer me up and I casually go along and ACT like I'm feeling better. Honestly I don't have a choice. This society is based on looks. If you don't feel good you don't look good, so in order to keep up appearences a false identity is needed. I need to take away my sorrow from my outer shell. I put it peacefully to rest deep within myself and let it fester and eat away at me. After a short while I realize, I can't keep doing this to myself. But alas, I never stop. It's an endless cycle of pain and torture. All because I let things get to me. Such a sad person I am when it comes down to whether or not to keep on a happy face. What a shame... what a shame.... I am to the world.