[elfflower1989]: 706.Three Words for You

They say that it's hard...to put so much meaning, so much emotion, into such few words. I disagree. With three words, you lifted me. "I love you." With those three words, I found peace, solace, love, and happiness. In those three words I discovered life and reason, a meaning to exist. In those three simple words, I found a place to belong.

And then you did it again. Uttered a few short, beautiful words, that brought a new warmth into my heart. "Will you marry me?"

Four words. Four words that encompassed everything I felt. In their utterance I heard love, I heard commitment, I heard tenderness. In those words I saw visions of our future. Together forever, til death do us part. In sickness and in health. I'll stay by your bedside forever. I will love you always, forever.

You brought me such words of joy. It only makes sense that someone else should bring me words of pain.

"Final stages of cancer."

"Terminal illness."

"Nothing we can do."

Nothing we can do? No. Never! There's ALWAYS something. Nothing? How can that be? How...is that even possible?

"He has about a month left."

No no no no no...this can't be....you'll get better!

"He's fighting bravely but-" The doctor shook his head.

You can't die...let me die, I don't want to live without you. Why can't I die instead?

And then, holding your hand, I watched. Watched as your eyes closed, your beautiful brown eyes, that looked at me for one last time, with love and tears in them, before closing to the world forever. I watched your eyes close, your breathing slow, and the slow rise and fall of your now emaciated chest stop. All the wires and tubes strung through you useless now. I heard, deafening, the sound of your heart stop beating. Beep. Beep. Beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepppppppp. And then the machine was unplugged, and I knew you were gone.

Here I am now, on the rooftop of the tallest building in the city. You remember this spot, don't you? It's where we had our first date. It was our favorite view of the city. It's where you first told me you loved me, when I had thought I'd hear those words a million times more. Before I knew we'd never get the chance. This is where you proposed, and I said yes, believing that word would keep us together forever. And this is where we talked about names for our children, never to be. I come here now for a reason, to find my way back to you. I came here to say my last words.

And as she jumped, the words "I love you" were caught, and torn away by the wind.