[Spirit]: 726.No remorse

Feelings of dread and pain cross my mind,

and I cannot stop the tears from flowing.

I punish myself for such weakness and put my mask on.

When I find a crack,

I try to mend it before others can see,

but sometimes I am not fast enough and they see through the cracks of my mask.

Then I must drone on to these strangers whom I do not know or trust about my life and the pain I suffer each day,

hearing their woes of pity and remorse makes me sick to my stomach.

I turn away as they try to say that they will be there for me.

But I know that it is a lie.

For I am a loner,

I know that there is no one who can really help me.

I was just put here to feel others anger and pain.

To feel their hands around my throat or in my gut.

Either way,

this life I have been living will soon,

come to an end.