[Truffeltrout]: 813.Poetry.God.

Dear God, benevolent or Horrible God, whichever may apply,
In my wisdom I know not which, and dare not neglect any possibility,
I remain as ever, Imperfect and Proud, to many sinful, to myself.. very,
I do not know if I believe in you God, for I am so riddled with doubt,
So Riddled with my own incomprehension that I May not understand,
Not now, or ever,

Dear God, Wonderful and traveling God, traveler of all worlds,
Keeper of all souls and the wisdom which I Will never possess,
I never Learned to pray like All the good boys and girls that I once knew,
I never sat in Church and listened to your good word or gave thought,
To Your Kingdom or the ways in Which you Rule or don’t rule,
Not now, or ever,

Dear God, powerful and vengeful God, God of disaster and Miracle,
I write because my Words will not come Out of my mouth,
Not if I locked my Head in a press and squeezed all Eternity would,
Any Word or intelligible Sound escape my Lips or be heard by Any,
And my thoughts would never be Understood by You, or would they?
Not now, or ever,

Dearest God, I pray and I Beg, because I am Scared and I do believe,
In You and your Kingdom, even if it Does not exist, it is the calm,
In My Ocean, My rest and silent solace and Hope that cannot be Spoken,
Because I am Imperfect and have Been so My Whole life, since I was Born,
Dear God, I do not Want to die, not for any Illness or Pain on Earth,
Not now, or ever,

Dear God in My heaven and bringer of My creation, hearer of all Prayers,
Spoken by Man since the Beginning of All of our time and of our Hopes,
I am a Coward who resorts to cling to Hope when I am faced with no Choice,
I am a Crude person for whom Life has not been about Sharing or Love,
Never Have I devoted my Time to truly help or use the gifts you Have bestowed on my Soul,
Not now, or ever,

Dear God, My beautiful and serene God that sings with Angels,
Whose threshold exists Beyond these Grey and barren limits on Earth,
Whose Heart is not of hate or of Petty thoughts and Spitefulnesses as Man,
Whose Name I have taken in vain in my Thought and my doing,
Of the life that I have taken So much in vain, just like I have Yours,
Now, and Ever.

May I live to see a while More, with the Woman I love, my Family I love,
Give Back more to Life and Live it instead of Mourn the Time lost,
Please, God.
Please.