fuck it
i DON'T want anyone else
ever again
i guess second best is ok for now
but
I am just waiting for the day I join Oliver once more
because
well,
because he was my reason to go on
and now that I've lost that
what else is there for me?!?!?

So I've been thinking
I THINK I wanna date again
it's not been that long
but I know Oliver would want me to be happy
I dunno what to do
I will meditate on it I guess