But you know, I've been thinking. Americans have ruined the meaning and thought behind Thanksgiving. Rather than being thankful for what they have they sit there and ask mommy and daddy for what they're getting for Christmas, or telling them what they want for Christmas.

Does that not defeat the purpose of all the family coming together?

Then there's the people that only want to impress everyone with their home and their food, so they freak out over any small thing that happens.

But whatever.
That's not what my family's like.

But hell, my dad's friend have to come over at 9 tonight to finish getting drunk because the next-next-neighbor's wife is gonna kick them out. So they're coming here. Lovely ain't it?

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Happy Thanksgiving !!!

Not grounded anymore.

Today I ended up going outside.

I KNOW! IT'S A FRICKEN MIRACLE!!!

But hey, Clint came over asking if I wanted to hang out at the skate park. I don't skate, but he does and his brother brought along two of his friends so he felt alone.

We ended up with everyone skating in front of the theater. One of the 12 or 13 year old boys was kinda cute but just to look at, he was pretty funny too. But he kept lookin at me lol so I guess it's all good.

Now my dad's sitting next to me ordering Pizza Hutt.

Yesterday was my sister's 18th birthday and she's getting an angel tattoo tomarrow in memory of my grandma who passed this January. She wants me to tag along with her.

She also got a knife.

I need to remember not to steal her makeup.

And I want doughnuts.

But whatever.

All in all this is the most lively day I've had since Heather moved away.

Not to mention the only real blog entry haha.

No more boyfriend.

I'm home.

I still have the rest of "Kiki Strike" to read, and then I have "Bloodsucking Fiends" to entertain me for the near three hours before my sister comes to pick me up for the circus.

Going to the movies with my boyfriend next monday because it's a holiday.

We can only see an R rated movie, so no vampire movies - his momma won't allow it.

My dad's a little hung over, my mom just got rid of another caffene-disapearance headaches, my sister's going to ber boyfriends, and I'm stuck with nothing to do now that we're home.

I hope you enjoy your day.

Untitled for the moment being (which is very odd for me, I know) :::

In the night I wish on a star
I wish that the man who loves me to bear a scar
Only because I was treating so wrong
I want him to know what it means to be 'strong'
I need him to see why I envy him so
Because I was treated like sh*t, and he might know
He might be one of who I now hate
Or an accomplis in the matter which we met by Fate
The lady of Love
The lady of Hate
The lady who pinned 
Us to discriminate 
The lady they Love 
The lady I Hate 
The lady that twisted; 
Contored my heart's shape
 
But the man I love
Won't come to me
I'm pretty sure
We weren't meant to be
So someone send me
Their love on wings
For I am lost
My heart is bline
I need you to set
These pieces alligned
[I need the love,
But I feel the hate,
No longer do I want
to feel presence of Fate.]

Wont be on much

Going to South Carolina for a family trip today.

Laters

Chuck wants me to meet his mom

I don't want to meet his mom.

I heard she's really mean =/

Bleh.

Cramps.

Anybody got some chocolate?

OoO chocolate icecream???????

making my dinner
home alone
trying to keep my dogs from eating socks and undies
having the refound guitar pick in my pocket
really liking my boyfriend
going to read - hopefully the rest - of "Kiki Strike"

You?

I lost it again. At school.

=*(

This sucks.

I finally found it.

And I can't find the rainbow guitar pick he gave me.

I'm pissed.

Well just so you guys know, I'm eating once more.

And I have a boyfriend - which is what the eating accompanied - and he's great.

So whatever.

Hrm...think anybody would notice if I stopped eating?

Okay so I haven't sworn off ALL men...
What's new?

Hrm. Not much to say other than A SHIT LOAD OF HOMEWORK!

Grawr. Oh and guy/gal problems. Why is it so hard to find a bisexual girl after swearing off all men?

Weeewwww!!! Skewl rocks, I love it. Alternative schools FTW!!!

Still play SWG of course, which is limiting my time on here. Sorry. I've also been in a really big writer's block...so...yeah.

Luff Hugs to ALLL!!!!

http://dustin.imeem.com/video/q7lsvAFB/my_spoon_is_too_big/

<halo>

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
"Swim, if they must. Crawl, if need be."

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can.
My hand hit the Total Experience box for Star Wars Galaxies.

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
I was reading and listening to the music videos on the Fuse Self Serve.

4. Without looking, guess what time it is?
Uhm, time to get a watch? Lol I dunno...2:30 - 3?

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
Hah!!! 2:49
Who owns? I own!!!

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
The computer beside me, because the two behind me are actually shut off. And that's the loudest one so yay! But also my sister talking to my dad asking if she ate all the Special K bars.

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
Uhm, today, about 10 mins ago I let my dog in from outside.

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
Naomi's Comment page, Naomi's comment page, and I started reading "Green Angel" by Alice Hoffman, which is what the exerpt was from on the first question.

9. What are you wearing?
Uhm, my night silk capris, my Pirates tanktop from yestery that I just so happened to sleep in, and a black flece thing cuz it's cold in my house.

10. Did you dream last night?
Of really freaky things, I dreamed my ex shot my parents and my sister, and I was asleep but I heard all this but was jus imoblilized, and then he came up stairs, raped me and slit my throat. And I was dead, but I could still see, I could still feel. Okay, so maybe that was a nightmare, but still.

11. When did you last laugh?
A little back when my sister was interogating my dog. But I doubt little Darla could open the pantry door, climb up four shelves, open a box, and take the Special K bars.

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
Atop of the hidiously pallor white walls the government enforces? Hrm, curtains, computer desks piling up on the walls, a couple hang candle houlders some pics of my mom and uncle when they were babies, and me and my sister when we were little. A buddha head for my sister, and a speaker for the next room *might I add the last messages were actually sitting ontop the wall that divides the computer room and living room but only has about two feed of space from ceiling to the top of the wall*

13. Seen anything weird lately?
Uhm, my sixth grade year book. My guildmates onlne being perverts, but that's not really weird to me. Oh, the sky being blue !!!

14. What do you think of this quiz?
It's uhm...well at least i'm not as bored as before.

15. What is the last film you saw?
uhm? *thinks hard* I saw one this morning !!! It was uhm...uh...oh yeah, the Bily and Mandy movie they had on Cartoon Network.

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
I would pay enough money for my friends family not having to pay the jerks that said they have to pay for the militaries screw ups, i'd give some to my mom and dad and sister, save some to start a college found, and give the rest to different charities. 

17. Tell me something that I don't know:
That you are text?

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
Me? My existance to vanish.

19. Do you like to dance?
With no one watching...

20. George Bush:
Almost gone?

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?:
uhm, without the addition of a father I suppose it would be either Kyra, Mallory, Maxyne, or Zoe.

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?:
uhm? Betty Loo? I dunno, I'm bad with boy names.

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
Hrm? Do you really want me to consider anything with the attachment of life? It normally leads to the ending of many...

24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
"Wow! You made it!"

25. 6 people who must also do this in THEIR journal?
???

Alrighty. I'm sorry I haven't been able to add a lot latley, i'm kinda having...uh...issues. But here's a song I just wrote in the showa haha. Words come to me at the most inconvenient times, honest.

But I had it written down before I was dressed...So I saved it!!!

:::

[Unfillable Shoes]

i want to let go,
be strong,
but i know

that no one else
is there for me
but my heart
refuses to dub me free

wait till i find my love
watch your interest in me
burn in the sun!

consume thy hate
heart deflates
uncross the fate
but it's too late

let it all drift away
find it lost in a day
i'll never find the way
when you say;

consume the light
enter spite
end the lies
you will find:

no one is waiting in the shadows
blind, searching for a hand to hold
abandoned by the life they sold
no one to match my mold.

[6/17/07]