Made 12:30 a.m. 1/1/08

This time of year has come again
To brush away all tears and pain
Inspires lies and 'resolution'
But bring to the world less saints - more pollution

This time of year has come again
To brush away all tears and pain
To makes believe, hope, and begin
To begin, but northing more than to [end].

Happy New Year to ALL

I hope last shitty year will never resurface in nothing other than our memories past.

'07 was a horrible year, and I wish all to have better.

Big Hugs to all and to all a good night.

BY THE WAY

Just because you're drunk doesn't make you an idiot. BE RESPONSIBLE DAMNIT!

Well, I guess I might as well update.

Breaks suck.
I'm getting my hair cut.
I love my special store:
-I know have purple tripps and two slut skirts all for 26 bucks!
I need more chocolate.
My dreams are scaring me.
And yes, I'm getting ANOTHER haircut. This one, even shorter.

What Some Refuse To Notice

It's funny how no one really understands the term 'cancer patient' without actually seeing the damage.

My sister has this boyfriend, they've been together for about a year or so. They were sent up here because of the medical care - his mom has cancer. Not really anybody knows this yet, but her treatment failed and she called my sister in while her family was away - she figured out this afternoon - and her kids don't know yet. My sister was so upset that I went with her, and I'd never met his mother.

It changed everything for me.

Her whispered words and her frail frame - she looked better than I was expecting, but I know she's looked better. She's beautiful and young, and still hasn't seen any grandbabies - which my sister promised she could have if she waited nine months. "Take care of my baby," and "I love you," was whispered with such...sentimental value and emotion to my sister.

It's changed my view of life and reminds me even more that the world needs not one more selfesh person. That just because other people can be selfesh, arogant, and oblivious to the world, I have experienced things - even though not first hand - that those people ignore on an hourly basis. "Why give money to cancer patients, they're just going to die anyways!" I've heard that muttered before in public, and now, more than even that moment, I still wish I could have punched that prick in the face.

But it wouldn't have changed anything, all they would have done was spend their money on a nose job instead.

I've never been a religious person, but if you are...pray for Suzanna. She deserves to live without pain and strife.

More than that, she deserves to live.

If any one here wants to post anything to show their hearts and minds and prayers are with her - and any body who has to face any sickness, or family/friend's sickness - I'm starting up a wiki page for poetry and thoughts. After I make it, anyone can post whatever they wish.

More people deserve love that they've never seen before - will you be the one to show it?

I hate drama.

There's this skank I went to school with last year - not many people know her here - and she mannipulates everyone, then when she slips up she guilt trips them to give her another chance.

Only one person is stupid enough to fall for her shit, and sadly enough he only JUST figured it all out. He wanted to be "nice."

Anyways, I'm putting more stuff up, mainly it's lesbian stuff but *shrug* I like it. I'll be working on adding "All Too Tangible..." but it's four pages, and if y'all haven't realized, I haven't really been able to stay on for that long =P

But you know, I've been thinking. Americans have ruined the meaning and thought behind Thanksgiving. Rather than being thankful for what they have they sit there and ask mommy and daddy for what they're getting for Christmas, or telling them what they want for Christmas.

Does that not defeat the purpose of all the family coming together?

Then there's the people that only want to impress everyone with their home and their food, so they freak out over any small thing that happens.

But whatever.
That's not what my family's like.

But hell, my dad's friend have to come over at 9 tonight to finish getting drunk because the next-next-neighbor's wife is gonna kick them out. So they're coming here. Lovely ain't it?

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Happy Thanksgiving !!!

Not grounded anymore.

Today I ended up going outside.

I KNOW! IT'S A FRICKEN MIRACLE!!!

But hey, Clint came over asking if I wanted to hang out at the skate park. I don't skate, but he does and his brother brought along two of his friends so he felt alone.

We ended up with everyone skating in front of the theater. One of the 12 or 13 year old boys was kinda cute but just to look at, he was pretty funny too. But he kept lookin at me lol so I guess it's all good.

Now my dad's sitting next to me ordering Pizza Hutt.

Yesterday was my sister's 18th birthday and she's getting an angel tattoo tomarrow in memory of my grandma who passed this January. She wants me to tag along with her.

She also got a knife.

I need to remember not to steal her makeup.

And I want doughnuts.

But whatever.

All in all this is the most lively day I've had since Heather moved away.

Not to mention the only real blog entry haha.

No more boyfriend.

I'm home.

I still have the rest of "Kiki Strike" to read, and then I have "Bloodsucking Fiends" to entertain me for the near three hours before my sister comes to pick me up for the circus.

Going to the movies with my boyfriend next monday because it's a holiday.

We can only see an R rated movie, so no vampire movies - his momma won't allow it.

My dad's a little hung over, my mom just got rid of another caffene-disapearance headaches, my sister's going to ber boyfriends, and I'm stuck with nothing to do now that we're home.

I hope you enjoy your day.

Untitled for the moment being (which is very odd for me, I know) :::

In the night I wish on a star
I wish that the man who loves me to bear a scar
Only because I was treating so wrong
I want him to know what it means to be 'strong'
I need him to see why I envy him so
Because I was treated like sh*t, and he might know
He might be one of who I now hate
Or an accomplis in the matter which we met by Fate
The lady of Love
The lady of Hate
The lady who pinned 
Us to discriminate 
The lady they Love 
The lady I Hate 
The lady that twisted; 
Contored my heart's shape
 
But the man I love
Won't come to me
I'm pretty sure
We weren't meant to be
So someone send me
Their love on wings
For I am lost
My heart is bline
I need you to set
These pieces alligned
[I need the love,
But I feel the hate,
No longer do I want
to feel presence of Fate.]

Wont be on much

Going to South Carolina for a family trip today.

Laters

Chuck wants me to meet his mom

I don't want to meet his mom.

I heard she's really mean =/

Bleh.

Cramps.

Anybody got some chocolate?

OoO chocolate icecream???????

making my dinner
home alone
trying to keep my dogs from eating socks and undies
having the refound guitar pick in my pocket
really liking my boyfriend
going to read - hopefully the rest - of "Kiki Strike"

You?

I lost it again. At school.

=*(

This sucks.

I finally found it.

And I can't find the rainbow guitar pick he gave me.

I'm pissed.

Well just so you guys know, I'm eating once more.

And I have a boyfriend - which is what the eating accompanied - and he's great.

So whatever.

Hrm...think anybody would notice if I stopped eating?