[Oblivion]

Falling for you
And I don't understand
How I can
Falling for you
And I don't take
Any percaution...

You take the blade
Into my heart
And stop my
Beating

You decide
All that's right
But it will never
Fall

Fall...

So won't you
Realize that I don't
Need you.
I don't want to see
Your news
I don't need how you
Can seem like it's all about you.

Falling for you
And I don't understand
How I can
Falling for you
I don't understand,
I just can't.

Force away my breath
Fall into my depth
Force away my breath
Haunt me into death.

[A Thought]

Everyone has those idols or heroes or ... well, whatever you wish to call them. But after those certain people do something terrible, you wish that you never wanted to be like them, right? Even though we all know in the back of your head there's still that yearning to be or have somewhat of what they had.

Does it make you monstrous to wish to be like so many people that drove themselves into insanity or a road of complete chaos? Does it make you insane yourself to wish to be such a tragedy...?

Or is it all just a mistake in its own, like certain lives and choices? The ones that weren't meant to be placed like an accident...

[Interlocked]

She pushes off his pants
And wraps her legs around his
Rests her head upon his shoulder
He bites her neck and licks
Her collar bone straight
To the other side
And feels her shaking
Into his stride

He pushes himself farther inside
And she moans
Caressing her tongue to his
Smooth neck, moans
She feels her body start to get
A little stiff and then fully
Relaxes letting out a noise
As he pulls out, whispering
Words of all that no one can see…

These are the secrets, they kill, they kill, they kill...

-Otep Shamaya

[Lace]

I
I don't
I don't feel pretty
Today
Let me witness
The fall
Go runaway
And I
I don't understand
I don't understand-
Why I have to see
Your face
I
I don't understand
I
I don't understand
I don't want
To see
You face
I don't want to dream
Of your...

[{You}]

Letting you go
To be free

Is like caressing
A rock in my chest

Swallowing shards
Of broken glass

Whispering lullabies
Of deception

Waiting for the moon
To become perfectly whole

Ramming a knife into
My heart

And hearing metal
Scrape earth

Cold and cracking

To be
Without

[Graveyard Romance]

I love you
Always had
Thoughts escape
Into the bland
and
I
don't
see
it
My feet mash
Into the sand
I just cannot
Understand
and
I
don't
see
it
You are so
With your enticing glow
I need you to know
I need your taste
and
I
just
don't
see
it
I love you
Always had
Walk with me
Through the sand
and
I
don't
see
it
I love you
Always had
I love you
Always had
and
I
just
don't
see
anything

[Elapse]

Shoving poison in my veins
You take it all away
The venom laces, I'm insane
You take it all away

Haunted until I lose it all
I see your face
Stalked, waiting till I fall
Please take it all away

All I have is pain
Take it all away
I don't want to be sane
You take it all away

I don't want to see
But I see your face
Why do you make me...
And I see your face

Shoving poison in my veins
You wait till I fall
The venom laces, I'm insane
I want to lose it all-
Please take it all

[8/17/08]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z6HhniP8x7U

"Maybe I'm not lying to you to make everything seem okay. Maybe I'm lying to myself to make me forget the monsters."

I'm back. If you couldn't tell that is...heh

I got 'Breaking Dawn' *omg my parents won't let me read it yet!* *screams*

I'm going on a cruise all next week.

I start school again tomarrow.

I have to go shopping today.

You can say I'm kinda pissed. But at least it's in the cheery way!

"The one who really messed me up...

We had it all in front of us -
You were the one I was in love
But you always hurt the one you lost
I couldn't get enough.
You were everything thing that's bad for me,
Make no apology
I'm crushed black and blue;
but you know I'd do it all again
For you..."

I'm pathetic - heh. Oh well, I guess better ignorant than stupid right?

So I like to pretend...

Pessimism vs. Optimism

The romance of regret
Is nothing to forget
So tear the world in two
To never find anything new

The romance of regret
Is what you find inside
When you look back and
Feel the need to cry

But tears can be enjoyable
In every way possible
Even when they’re for the worst things

But tears can be enjoyable
In the best way plausible
If you have someone to hold you and sing

The romance of regret
Is only a mind set
Like all forms of passion
And discovered like a first kiss – accident

The romance of regret
Is only what you hide
To bring back for later times
To hate what you’ve become in lies

If I can hate myself
And hate to live, hate to love
Can you love me for my
Outstanding hatred for you too?

I thought he saved me from the past.
But he saves me from myself.

Is that why I love him,
Or is it everything else that I believe?

Or am I just a fool in his way while he's making his own plans?

The worst part is that even when I tried to tell myself leaving him was for the best - I still love him. I still can't come up with a reason to why I did break up with him.

Am I making him 'love' me back?

I've realized it makes more sense for me to believe that the very repeated motto of, "Everything happens for a reason," is actually quite false. With a simple change in words it fits so much more into what life really is.

"Everything happens with a reason."

So an action may have an after affect that's better, or worse, and looking back you may find a reason - but that doesn't necessarily mean that one little thing is why it all happened. It is simply what made other moments happen, what set them into place.

I just realized my page is getting sloppy...

I'm not even posting a lot compared to what I'm writing, heh. Fun >_<

Can I even - complicate your breathing ...

http://youtube.com/watch?v=25mOMFf9wuI&;feature=related

http://youtube.com/watch?v=MCDsTW-2nNY&;feature=related

How is it there's always those words stuck inside your head that you don't know how to express?

Or that there's those emotions you don't know how to suppress?

Ideas that never make sense out loud...

Tonight I saw the 7 o'clock showing of the Dark Knight, and my was it brilliant!

It had everything!!! And might I say with all those explosions, I'm not sure if all the temptation of the crowd was formed by the vibrations given off or truly the two sexy men on the screen. I was quite taken away and Heath Ledger was born for the exact role. It was brilliant, mind blowing, predictable in the all the wrong ways that make it right, and worth the extra spent on popcorn.

You all MUST see it!

Don't look to me like I judge your appearace, don't force me down because you do. Your colour means nothing to me and never will, but you decide to take pride then decide I may not participate in mine. If I am white that does not mean I cannot support my own rights because we have them now. So do you, you are simply not supplied enough with your own dignity and that is what you lack. Find yourself before you decide that I may not be me, and take pride in the fact that I can.

Mirabilia again:

"Such pretty words
Could you mean them all?
It's funny how youre so caught up in jealousy
It's only love, only love, its only for fun..."

*luffs*

"All we need is 6 wha?zillion dollars!"

"First...that's not even a number..."

"It's a shame, you shouldn't lie - especially about pie."

*luff Duck Dodgers*

Oh and I started playing WoW. Yes I know, I'm a traitor. =/

I might be grounded from the computer, not sure...so, yeah. If I'm not on for a long time, that's why guys.

Also, working on one of my books, then going to start again on Second Hand Nostalgia.

Also making my "starter collections" all my stuff from the very beginning till I decide they're done...

I might post "The Book of Bad Memories, None Regrets"

but i still have each chapter saved to a different document.

luffs