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Written about Wednesday 2008-09-10
Written: (5132 days ago)

VERMILLION PART TWO LYRICS - SLIPKNOT
She seemed dressed in all of me, stretched across my shame.
All the torment and the pain
Leaked through and covered me
I'd do anything to have her to myself
Just to have her for myself
Now I don't know what to do, I don't know what to do when she makes me sane.

She is everything to me
The unrequited dream
A song that no one sings
The unattainable, Shes a myth that I have to believe in
All I need to make it real is one more reason
I don't know what to do, I don't know what to do when she makes me sad.

But I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me

A catch in my throat choke
Torn into pieces
I won't, no!
I don't wanna be this...

But I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me

She isn't real
I can't make her real
She isn't real
I can't make her real

SNUFF LYRICS - SLIPKNOT

Bury all your secrets in my skin
Come away with innocence, and leave me with my sins
The air around me still feels like a cage
And love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage again…

So if you love me, let me go. And run away before I know.
My heart is just too dark to care. I can't destroy what isn't there.
Deliver me into my Fate - If I'm alone I cannot hate
I don't deserve to have you…
My smile was taken long ago / If I can change I hope I never know

I still press your letters to my lips
And cherish them in parts of me that savor every kiss
I couldn't face a life without your light
But all of that was ripped apart… when you refused to fight

So save your breath, I will not hear. I think I made it very clear.
You couldn't hate enough to love. Is that supposed to be enough?
I only wish you weren't my friend. Then I could hurt you in the end.
I never claimed to be a Saint…
My own was banished long ago / It took the Death of Hope to let you go

So Break Yourself Against My Stones
And Spit Your Pity In My Soul
You Never Needed Any Help
You Sold Me Out To Save Yourself
And I Won't Listen To Your Shame
You Ran Away - You're All The Same
Angels Lie To Keep Control…
My Love Was Punished Long Ago
If You Still Care, Don't Ever Let Me Know
If you still care, don't ever let me know…



These lyrics...
They speak to me...
They resemble my feelings...
They resemble my thoughts...
My ex...oy...
"So if you love me, let me go. And run away before I know.
My heart is just too dark to care. I can't destroy what isn't there.
Deliver me into my Fate - If I'm alone I cannot hate
I don't deserve to have you…
My smile was taken long ago / If I can change I hope I never know"

those lines...say it right there...

and this one here...
"My Love Was Punished Long Ago"...indeed...it was.
my ex..."You Ran Away - You're All The Same"
all my exes are...oy...they all run...uggh.

and that's just snuff lines tho...

now from pt. 2..

She seemed dressed in all of me
Stretched across my shame,
All the torment and the pain
Leaked through and covered me.
I'd do anything to have her to myself,
Just to have her for myself.
Now I don't know what to do,
I don't know what to do
When she makes me sad.

Torment and pain did cover me.
And Those lines also describe how i feel.
but idk what to do cause she makes me sad...
tis why i don't talk to her much...
just brings sadness to me, just thinking of her..

"But I won't let this build up inside of me.
I won't let this build up inside of me."
Man...have I ever...
I need to let it out so it won't build up...

"A catch in my throat
choke
Torn into pieces
I won't.
No.
I don't want to be this but"- No I don't wanna be this.
I want happiness. WHY CAN'T IT STAY?!?! FUCK!

"But I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me"
-It takes many times for it to not build up...many tries...
not just once..

"She isn't real
I can't make her real
She isn't real
I can't make her real"
-The skepticism in me coming out...
I can't make the "one" for me real...
she isn't.
there isn't a "one"...
There may be some who come close,
but there's none that will be real.
Not to me...

"She is everything to me,
The unrequited dream,
The song that no one sings,
The unattainable.
She's a myth that I have to believe in,
All I need to make it real is one more reason."
-My skepticism confirmed...
she's unattainable...but all i need is one more reason...
just one more...just to make the myth real...
yet I will never attain the reason...
why? Cause she isn't real and I can't make her real...
END OF EMOTIONAL SPILL
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Written about Friday 2008-04-18
Written: (5276 days ago)

nothings changed
the senates still corrupt
& the emporer remains insane

and everyday
is a new strain of slaughter

supply lines are less protected
evil on all sides

eye can smell the death on your flesh
-- creeping in

trapped within the twisting fingers of fear
and all eye see is ewe

that face
those eyes

burning like leprosy

eye can see u there
poisoning the air

prostituting Nationalism

and eye want to attack
to rip out your heart and lay your flat on your back

and vomit a world of agony and truth
into your throbbing illness of memory

... and hate guides our way

eye long for the icy slap of a belt across my back
for the acceptance of death and blind cave war

the giving sleep of depression
the sweet elucidation of savage, meaningless aggression

chiseled in the meaty forearms of Mother Jupiter and his slave disciples

in the harem tents - outside
just beyond the edges - eye ride

a cycloptic mare in the fires of imagination

feeding my disease
a river of plagues

eye need something to remind me eye am still sinning
that pain in important
that wurdz matter
that healing in possible

that eye am not alone ... in this

- guard the houses
- triple the watch
- maidens, dig up your sorcery
- sirens, sharpen your rocks

... ewe will eat my pain again

whatever u need
unite messiah ME

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Written about Friday 2007-04-27
Written: (5634 days ago)

"Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one getting burned." - Buddha

"In confrontation, the moment we begin to feel anger we cease striving for truth and start striving for ourselves." - Buddha

"It is a person's own mind, not his enemy or foe, that lures him to evil ways." - Buddha

"Peace comes from within. Do not seek it without." - Buddha

"Anger makes you smaller, while forgiveness forces you to grow beyond what you were." - Cherie Carter-Scott

"The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong." - Mahatma Ghandi

"When you hold resentment toward another, you are bound to that person or condition by an emotional link that is stronger than steel. Forgiveness is the only way to dissolve that link and get free." - Catherine Ponder

"To err is human, to forgive, divine." - Alexander Pope

"To forgive is to set a prisoner free and discover that the prisoner was you." - Lewis B. Smedes

"Forgiveness is freeing up and putting to better use the energy once consumed by holding grudges, harboring resentments, and nursing unhealed wounds." - Sidney and Suzanne Simon

"It's so easy to laugh. It's so easy to hate. It takes strength to be gentle and kind." - Stephen Morrissey

"The way people treat you is a reflection of the way you treat people." - Remez Sasson

"Your living is determined not so much by what life brings to you as by the attitude you bring to life; not so much by what happens to you as by the way your mind looks at what happens." - Kahlil Gibran

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Written about Monday 2007-04-16
Written: (5644 days ago)

I am lost right now. There's nothing in life to live for. I know I probably should get more Jesus in my life, but I'd probably still be sad, because, how can someone you never met or seen or talked to make you happy? How can something you cannot touch or feel or hear or see give you joy? It doesn't make sense. But I guess I'll give him a chance...well, more than I already have. Just wish there was more to life than what there is for me...basically right now I have no social life outside of school or the internet...I'm ok with it but a bit discontent with my life too...I need a change in my life...religion...a girlfriend...friends to hang out with after school...an after school activity...something...or maybe all 4 =)...who knows...

but yeah, that's basically what I've come to realize while I was thinking...but I have learned other things...but that's for another time...for now...

-Peace Out

 The logged in version 


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