This storm in the sea of my life has had one good side-effect. I am now suddenly driven to do things. I can't stand to just sit here anymore. I must be up, and about, and doing something. I'm turning this new energy and drive to cleaning up my mom's house while I'm living here, getting in to see my dad, finding a job and an apartment in southern Cali, and visiting people I haven't seen in far too long.

Some time soon, I will disappear for about a week. Don't worry, I'll be back to keep up with my obligations here. But I won't be hanging around much, just long enough to do what I need to, and then I'll be gone again. This is because I'll be down in southern California, dedicating myself to searching out a job and an apartment, and hanging out with my boyfriend's family (the last one when I can't be out searching; the Hunt is my first priority).

Absolutely nothing has gone right today. I may never get to see my dad again.

Note to any staff who may be reading my blog entries:

The below is me venting. I have spoken with [Font] since writing it, and my views have changed somewhat. Also, some things have changed, and are no longer factual (aside from what was already not factual, and my own views). This is simply how I saw the problem at the time I wrote it. Please refrain from messaging me with corrections to any mistakes you might see, or patronizing me.

I do understand that the blog is in poor taste, and I would probably be better removing it. However, telling me what's wrong with it will not make me remove or change it in any way. Thank you for your time.

I have a friend who did nothing more than try to help out a community that he saw lagging. For this, he was banned.

Let us share a moment of silence for this man, and for the administrators who banned him.

While my friend's efforts did not seem a rebellion to me, and I'm sure that they did not seem a rebellion to the other members who joined in the effort, thoughts of rebellion against the unfairness of this entire thing have been growing in my mind (gasp! Better not let them see this, for it will soon be me banned, for my own thoughts that this was an unfair action on their part). I am not trying to stir up trouble (think they'll believe me? They didn't believe him), but I would like to know why, exactly, they found my friend a threat.

I guess that voicing my thoughts on this whole thing will get me sent off with my friend, but in reality, he was the most active member here, aside from the administrators and possibly some of the staff. He is the one that made this community known to me. He is the one that made sure I came back, with his wonderful writings and his contest ideas. He is the reason I didn't leave this site entirely when I saw how dead a place it was. He is not, however, the reason that I will be leaving this site entirely very soon. No, the reason for that is the administrators. I had thoughts of leaving, even before my friend was banned. They were stuck on the idea that he was leading an overt rebellion against him, when all he was really doing was trying to wake up a community that had been sleeping. He was on their side, yet they refused to see it because of his statement that he wanted no 'official' contests in his contest section. I wonder if they ever bothered to ask why.

In case they didn't, here is what I have gleaned: the 'official' contests were not working. There were fees, questions of copyrights, and other problems. He did not want those problems in his own attempt to awaken the community, so he specifically said they were not to be in his contest section. And anyway, the 'official' contests had their own section.

If that sounds like a rebellion to you, please be sure to tell me how. I fail to see it.

Thank you for your time. You may have your ears back now.