FEAR OF MUSIC ARE PLAYING IN FEB!!

Oh yes.
Can't wait =]

They're supporting American band Mute Math...
Not that I don't like MM, I just prefer FoM <3
Those kids from Mancester rock so much.
They're amazing.

Weekend tomorrow...
Eep.
Dom made an oh so funny joke on Wednesday... Urgh.
He's going to get me some vodka for X-Mas.
Haha.
That was his response when I told him to get me anything.
And when he found out about last Saturday.
Not complaining mind... Haha.

He is off to Manchester on Sat =[
I'll miss him.
Still, he'll be in town for about 3 hours xD
So will She.
What am I going to do??

I only found out how she felt when she found out I nearly died.
I don't belive I was so stupid.
She'd said before, but she was drunk and I dismissed it.
But she meant it.
And so does he.
I'm so confused.
Which one?
I can't choose between my two best friends.
They both have so much shit in their lives.
I feel like I'm adding to it.
And it makes me feel so bad.
No matter what I do, I'll always feel like I'm betraying at least one of them...
At least one thing is sorted: the reason for her running off on Saturday.
I was with him.
And she wasn't happy and I should have known.
But I didn't follow her.
I was too far gone: I would have collapsed if I had tried to walk.
He stayed with me though.
He wanted to come to the hospital with me, but his father dragged him away: he was too drunk.
And he was still shaking on Sunday.
And last night?
Well, we went to Stage Door...
And this time we managed it without any alcohol.
Shit.
At least we waited until everyone we knew appart from Saffs was gone.

I found out who my true friends were too.
He is.
And she is.
But some of the others?
Oh no.
I was filled in.
When I fell unconcious they didn't help.
They stood by and watched and laughed.
Laughed when I could have died.
I hope they understand what happened.
How serious it was...
I feel sick and tearful when I think back.

I would say never again, but then I'd be lying.
I'm part of the twisted youth of today.
At least I'm still alive though...
Joe isn't.
Just think, what happened to him could have happened to me.
Not as many people would have cared though.
What a world we live in...

Fwee!!

First "Writing" up now... I hope i did it correctly o.O