[ghost]: 200.Poetry.Against me

I wish I could hate you
despise you, forsake you
I wish I could say you weren't worth my time
I wish I could free you
just forget you and leave you
I wish I could claim that you aren't worth my life


I wish I could love me
forgive me and trust me
I wish I could say that I was once worth your time
I wish I could see me
as I was, before me
I wish I could claim that the fault isn't mine


I have spoken words to you
words that betrayed my intentions
and were not said how I meant it
I have done things to you
Unthinking and foolish
Insulting and boorish


I have hurt you, and i despise me
And so I run, and I try to hide me
Because I hate the truth I know inside me;
All my pain against me was once cause by me.