[shadow in the midst]: 279.My First Love

standing still; breaths silent
making memories hard to ignore
your beautiful smile; elaborate eyes
making me miss you more

theres words I wish I could tell you
those things I used to say
but those things that made me lose you
will never go away

your light tapping on the door
changed to a thunderous knock
all of your moments haunting me so
everything I wish I forgot

you want to be my friend
but its so much harder than that
to know I am so close
but your love Ill always lack

so I tear into my darkness
and bury me with my smile
sing a song no one knows
the tune of my failed trial

my life at a strict pause
my moments stilled to beat
my remote now infinitely crushed;
my hearts hastened retreat

I guess friends is better though
so many things were tough
but my memories stand solid and sweet
you are forever my first love~