[shadow in the midst]: 279.pain of love

unborn tears dampen my eyes
as they have for many years
hiding away all that i am
my secret arrivals of fears

of what you are and who i am
everything done and undone
everything from who i was
everything that i couldnt outrun

secretly planning death of lives
wishing them to suffer as much as i do
nothing but this seems real anymore
nothing seems real except you

and the selfish things you do to me
youre cowardly excuses rush in
memories of how much you ve hurt me
the list has no place to begin

youre lies to me had fooled me so
nothing else has tortured this bad
from everything thats been for us
anything we ever had~