[bloody kisses]: 558.Contest Entries.Five Words - March '08

I never wanted to grow up, never wanted to be the same person for too long. I always thought I could just suppress it, grow bitter at taste and let no one in. I was always afraid of the future, as unchanging as it was. And thus was afraid of everything…anything and everything could change the course of history, could make you pine for the past; crawl back into your memories like a snake constricting onto its prey. So now everyday I pull the same stunt, no one told me suicide led to never leaving. No one ever told me that if I’d stumbled off of a façade, I’d be the same person forever, same thing forever, have the same action forever. If there is a God he must enjoy watching me die every day as the girl who didn’t want to be.