[Spirit]: 726.Why?

Why can't he just do it now? Why just say it? Why not get it over with and end my life? Why does he hesitate? Is he afraid I will run? Or is he afraid that I will suffer? I would not run and I would love to feel the slow agonizing pain. But just do it instead of saying it. But make sure to get rid of the evidence. U need not to serve in prison for my death but only to celabrate. For u would be rid of me and no longer have a bother. Just make sure to do me one last favor. Tell me u love. I loved u from the day I moved to Boone. I loved u even after all ur spats and threats. I loved u after all the groundings and embarrassments. I loved u after all the abuse both physically and verbally. I love u to the end. But do u truly love me? Or do u just use me for your sick pleasure of torment and abuse and turture? I love u no matter what u do. But please can u ease up just a little? If not then just kill me already and end my misery. I will always love u. Even if u dont love me