[AuroraLumos]: 733.Poetry.A strange depression (Set of short poems)

Just a set of random shorts that I wrote all one after the other in about 10 mins XD was pissed off about omething me thinks

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I hate this life
Will probably hate the next
Am I incapable of loving?

I am the key to any argument;
It can't start until I'm there
It can't stop until I'm gone.

A walking disaster
I care not about what happens after I've left
I care little enough when I'm there.

It's always me me me
What is my problem?
Selfish stupid stupid girl.

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This life I lead none understand.
Not even I... the leader.
Am I truely the waste of space others lead me to believe?
Or is there someone?
Anyone?
Who can save me...
Lost in my own creation.

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NOTHING
   In my heart,
       In my soul,
           My body,
               Myself,
                  My all.

              I mean NOTHING
         Not to him,
     Nor to her,
   You,
  Me?
The monsters of this land have more purpose than I.

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The sun shines and yet I can't feel its warmth.
My skin burns
Eyes water
I'm wasting away
and yet I still feel it not.
Am I so cold as to not feel the heat of the midsummer sun?

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In a waking coma I lay,
Listening to everything,
And to nothing,
Watching everyone,
and no one,

Seconds
Minutes
Hours
Days
Months
Years
All pass by without a care
I just lay down here,
and stare.

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well.... that was random! XD