I don’t know who actually reads this but I’m writing it more for myself than anything. I recently got a new boyfriend and his name is Nick. I’ve only been going out with him for about a week but I’m really happy with him. I won’t say that I love him because I don’t; I only just started dating him. But I do know that I could love him in time. He makes me so happy and I can be myself with him. He understands me and what I’m currently going through, having gone through very similar things himself. I’m also not saying that Nick is the only one that has ever made me happy. I was happy with Andrew and even with Chris but I’ve never been this happy with a guy. Maybe I like being with Nick better because he understands me, maybe because I feel like I can be myself around him, or maybe it’s something else. All I know is that things are different with Nick. I’m happier with him and I like that. When Nick kisses me or even just touches me I get chills or goose bumps…I enjoy just being in his arms and I’ve never had that with a guy before. He came over yesterday and after everyone left we just sat there watching TV for hours, in each other’s arms. I’ve never been able to do that with anyone else…I would want to be doing something else so that I wouldn't get bored but with Nick I am totally satisfied with just sitting there in his arms. What does it mean that I can do things like this with Nick? I don’t know I guess these are just my thoughts for now…then again recently he has been all that I think about. I have to wait and see where things go from here.