{who i thought you weren't} you showed
me things i've never felt.
all the pain went away when i talked to you.
you told me things i've never known.
and i thought it was you i knew.
my thoughts of you we're different.
my heart sank deep in my gut giving me butterflies.
and when i knew you felt pain i cried.
but heres the problem.....you lied.
my feelings were for a different boy
the one i thought i knew
the boy i saw on your face
didn't turn out to be you
i cried for your attention
you tried so hard to show me
the boy i craved for so much
its not you and i have to set you free
fly so far i won't look back
i'm letting you so you can stay on track
create a life
create a home
i'll be fine
i'm not alone
a kiss for luck
a hug goodbye
and now its time to let you fly
because all this time your the guy i thought you weren't
{i'm so sorry}
i'm sorry that i hurt you
i'm sorry that i want to die
i'm sorry that i can't be better
i'm sorry i make you cry
i know you probably don't care
if i vanished into thin air
all i can say thats true
is that i absolutely love you
so i'm sorry that i need you
i'm sorry that your mine
i'm sorry that i love you
and i'm sorry it's fine
i'm so so sorry
{i like this boy}
so i like this boy you see
but i don't think he cares
he was such a sweetie
and he had a laugh that always made me smile
but now my smile is gone
he isn't as sweet as he once was
he gave up on the best we had
i want to smile again
but now i don't think it will happen
he is mean and cruel
and hates me with passion
it makes me so sad
because the emotions i still have for him
are strong and have never changed
i love him deep down very much
and this is why it hurts
i shouldn't love him anymore
so why do i?
its his smile
whether its towards me or someone else
that warming smile is so hard to ignore
i fell in love with that smile
and i'm still in love with it now
everytime he is mean i go insane
but once i see that smile of his
my day is much better
i am still sad no matter what
but this is why i can't stop
no smile warms my heart like his
i wish i never fell in love with him or his smile
now all it does is rip me up in the end
{you know what i love}
i love how i always had your back.
how if you were in trouble i would try my best to get you out of it.
how if you were hurt i would help you.
how if there were any problems between us i would still love you.
i love how i did all those things for you and you still threw me aside like i was a piece of garbage.
i love that
{coping with the pain}
a black river
is what i sit by
i shake and shiver
and start to cry
my emotions are tangled
my life spins around
i'm getting dizzy
i fall to the ground
i look into the water
and i don't see me
a tear drop falls
it is him i see
my past regressions
come rushing to me
i close my eyes
i try to be free
i open my heart
and let my feelings flow
sometimes it is right
to let emotions go
i lay down
curl up in a ball
i am going insane
i feel so small
someone needs to fill
the hole he carved
into my heart
i feel starved
i don't want love
but i can't handle with out it
so when the heartache arrives
my lip will be bit
i embrace the pain
so emotional
tearing at my brain
i pull out my hair
i scream at the
top of my lungs
i stand up an
yell at the sky
"i will not be hung"
not yet
don't pull me down
you can't do this
my love i will not frown
i will not belittle
myself infront of you
i will not take your hurt
you know i can hurt you too
what am i doing
why do you impact me
when i try so hard
just to let you be
why do i cry
and still love you
when i should just
start over new
so i will scream until
my lungs give out
my eyes start to tear
my heart stops beating
my body quakes
and i just collapse
I'm not giving up yet
Stumble!