[ghost]: 200.Poetry.My Chaos

There's a place in my dreams
where everybody seems
so happy
like all pain is gone
there's a song I'd sing
if I knew the melody
so perfect
and it's all I want
There's a life I'd live
if I wasn't so afraid
so hateful
so maleficent
there are times I'd scream
if it wasn't for the pain
so peaceful
so benevolent

and maybe there's really something more to this life
beyond just what we see
waiting for us on the other side of
this coined insanity
that we hold so close, so dear to us
in spite of all of its decay
as we breathe the rot
with every word we say
....word we say....

There's a land I'd seek
if it wasn't for this cage
constricting
see how it holds me down
and this love I'd leave
if it wasn't such a maze
so twisted
I'm so confused right now
And as time goes by
I look back and realize:
no meaning.
That's why my past's so dark
with all these shattered dreams
I keep in this broken heart
still bleeding
because these wounds won't scar

and maybe there's really something more than this fake
society we see
something after all this havoc we wreak
on our own sweet tragedies
that we build of all the tears shed
to know that it's all been done in vain
as we bleed the hate
in every world we make
... world we make....

There's a place in my dreams
where everybody seems
so happy
until the smile's all fade
and what's left just feels
like some stupid endless game
that we play
over and over again
As we hide ourselves
from the monsters we've become
such evil
so deep inside of us
how can we escape
when we still hold the smoking gun
as criminals
shame to life itself

but maybe that's really not the point of all this
masquerading that we do
maybe it's really that we try to ignore
this massacre of our souls
as we witness time, and time again
that nothing will ever stay the same
as we feed the pain
into this chaos we create!

Chaos we create this chaos!
Chaos we create this chaos!
Chaos we create this chaos!
Chaos we create this chaos!!
Ah!
how it burns
deep inside my soul
and Oh!
how I yearn
to become so much more
than I am alone
as I stand against the world
and see the final coming
of the end I know too well
and I hear the steady drumming
as the band plays us farewell
Farewell!