[Blood_suk'n Pirate]: 604.I miss myself

I miss myself, the way I used to be.
There was never a dull moment,
Only good times, happy and laughing.
But now those times have gone and went.

When will that come back?
Tired of the saddness everytime I look around.
No one has a smile anymore.
All faces are one emotion and it's down.

How can I bring myself back to life?
First I need to get out of this rut I'm in.
Do you know anyway I can do that?
Let me start from the beginning and go to the end.

A boy used me to get back at his ex-girlfriend.
And now my heart is broken and I don't know what I should do now.
All the pieces of a torn heart are on the ground.
Crunched up, tired of fallen apart...I NEED HELP...but how?!

Wait, what are these coming from my eyes down my cheek?
Oh shit, I must be crying, the pain it hurts so much.
Don't know when I will get over this hopefully soon.
I just hate feeling this way, crying over a boy and such.

But what I'm doing right now, writing my feelings down is helping.
Yet, what else can I do?
To make this pain go away, I know it will come back.
But for now, make it leave, so I can live another day or two.

I will find a way, some how.
I'll leave now to go look for it. Pray for me.
Next time I'm in, you'll see a different person, I promise.
Someone with a smile on her face and finally happy.