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Why is it that every time he hurts my feelings, he gets mad at me? It's quite illogical, I should get mad at im, or he should get mad at himself.
He knows I wait for him or his call and he neglects me. He lies to me, yet doesn't admit it when he is caught at it, but tries to talk his way out of it. He breaks his promises, alters the plans we've made together forhis own benefits without telling me. He makes me do things the way he wants them done, he doesn't care for the things that matter to me.
He doesn't fess up to his mistakes or flaws or problems, yet he nitpicks on mine; he scowlds me, calls me names, threatens to leave me but never leaves me alone and he takes emotional advantages of my upset.
I can't talk to him about the things that matter and he is not interested in talking or listening about the every-day matters. I can't trust his word nor can I trust myself to relax near him; I have to be cautious of every word, every gesture that might set him off at me again. I never feel at ease around his friends because I don't know what they have heard of me and I can't understand what they speak of me in hindi in my presense.
He is always inconsiderate and it seems that he is ashamed of me. He doesn't want anyone, who is directly related to him, to see me with him; he hasn't even told most of them that he has a girlfriend- that he has a fiance!
I really can't communicate with him, not about the things that I'd want to: Any sign of selfishness from my side will be showered with another burst ofshouting and scowlding and it just brings me to tears and does no one no good.
And this my child, my baby, my son or daughter, this is the reason you were never born. For the man I love is...